I haven't journaled in quite a while.  I'm not sure how I feel right now.

Ever since the first of November, things have been crazy. 

I went to Mass on All Saints Day at St. Theresa Parish.  The Mass was a Mass of Remembrance for all of the people that had died and had their funerals at the Church this past year.  My adopted Mom was buried from the Church.  I went because my adopted family was going to be there. 

The celebration did not started out very friendly.  The Pastoral Care Minister was not very hospitable.  One of her helpers was a personal friend of mine.  She was so sweet and asked me how I was doing.  We started to chat and were interrupted by the Pastoral Care Minister.  She started yelling at her helper.  After she left, we continued our conversation.  She came back and yelled at me saying that this helper had a job to do and that I should not talk to her.  I think St. Francis would have been on her case very fast.

The Mass was nice enough, although there was allot of Latin Music sung.  I felt like we had gone back to Pre-Vatican times. 

On November 8th, my husband had to go into the hospital for a heart procedure.  A year ago he had two stents inserted into his arteries.  Now the doctor had to replace them.  He told me that if these didn't work, Tom would probably need a bypass.

God were are you?  Please help us!  We need you!

I am not ready to face more sadness.  I feel helpless!