I'm back.....

I had been feeling really good until this past Tuesday.  I started having digestive problems.  Then I got a hemorrhoid.  So today all I have eaten is a scrambled egg and a cup of tea.  I have lost about five pounds in one week.  Today, all I have had is water.  I am trying to rest my bowels.

I have been feeling very sorry for myself.  I have been praying for healing constantly.  My husband and I are supposed to be going on a retreat on Saturday for our formation in the Secular Franciscans.  If the devil is trying to keep us from making our vows on June 13th, he is going to deal with St. Michael the Archangel.  He is a warrior and champion. 

I am not going to let the devil win.  St. Michael will not let that happen either.

Tom, my husband, is making me a little pudding to eat.  I am hoping that I don't get sick from it.  I am so hungry.  Well, we will see how it goes.

God is in charge of my life and health. 

I haven't journaled since March 7th, allot has happened since then.  On March 8th I started to get very sick.  I started having stomach pains.  On March 9th I went to the doctor.  He was ready to put me in the hospital.  We all agreed to wait and see if this illness would pass.  All night long I kept getting up sick to my stomach.  At 3:00 a.m. I couldn't stay in bed any longer.  The pain was getting very severe.  At 6:15, my husband said that we were going to the emergency room.  I spent my time in the emergency room until about 4:00 p.m.  Then I was taken to surgery.  It turned out to be a hernia.

I am getting very close to being professed into the Secular Franciscan Order.  The Profession Ceremony is on June 13th.  I have been thinking that the devil is out to keep me and my husband from reaching our day.  I know that our Lord and Savior is our constant companion.

During my recovery, I have been praying earnestly for protection.  I want to serve my Lord forever.  I do not want anything or anyone to come between me and my Lord.

June 13th will happen for me and my husband.  God loves me and I love Him.

Since Friday, my husband has been sick with a sore throat and cold.  It went from sore throat, to cold, to in his chest.  He has a terrible cough.  He has been sitting up in a recliner to sleep, since Friday. 

Before he left work on Friday, he joked to a co-worker that he was going to take a sick day on Monday.  The job, sometimes, can be very stressful, but he was only joking (he is Irish).  He really wasn't going to take a sick day.  He had no idea that he would really get sick.  He called into the sick line for work this morning.  Well, the co-worker is very angry with him. 

My husband is not out to make people angry.  He is not a fighter.  He is a quiet, gentle, loving person.  He loves God and all His children.  My husband is afraid that he will be reported and will loose his job. 

Please pray for peace and calmness for him.  He needs to recover.

I am worried that he will get depressed.   

We will trust in the Lord!  We will follow Him in everything!

I have been very excited and emotional lately.  I feel like something is about to break through.  I'm not sure what it is, but it is going to be a very strong thing.

I have been waking up in the middle of the night very agitated.  I have to sit up in my rocking chair and pray until I fall asleep in my chair.  The only way that I am at peace is to pray.  During the day, I have to sometimes put on Christian Music to get through the day. 

I am wondering if God has been trying to reach me.  I have been feeling like He has something for me to do.  I wish that I knew what it was.  I have got to remember that God is God and I am not.  So, I will be patient and just wait until things are revealed to me.  I probably need to be quiet and listen.

Sunday I read in the obituaries that a lady that my husband and I had shared our faith with in the RCIA had passed away.  I will attend her funeral on Friday.  She had a great devotion to St. Anthony of Padua.  She was a fantastic piano player and dedicated her two CD's to St. Anthony.  She used to say that everything that she received from God was do to the intercession of St. Anthony.  I am going to miss her very much.  She was a great lady.  May she rest in peace!

Well, I am going to go and pray now.  I need to be with my Lord!